` dana `

G00dBYE

2004-06-22T00:50:16Z

G00dBYE made0fstarburst, hello hottpinkz!!

police station

2004-06-17T10:13:03Z

the other day my mom took me down to the police station to press charges on my teacher. i had to tell my story about three times, and the third time it took me hours because they wanted me to be specific. then at the end the detective told me my teacher was there, so i freaked out a little bit. he said don't worry, and we took a backway. my mom was pretty nice. she actually put her arm around my shoulder. she's been through she before - she was raped by her older brother - so she knows what it's like to be betrayed by someone you trust a lot. when we got outside and got hit with hot&humid air, i saw my teacher's car - a black jeep - and freaked out again. it was a whole new expirence. the other night when dad's friends were over and they were in the garage, i cried silently. i know they were looking at me, but i didn't really care then. dillon also came outside and asked me what was wrong. dad just said my allergies. dillon still doesn't know, but i figure the truth will evenutally leak out.

\\ x0 * daNA

p.s. i cut a bit last night too. but you can only see the two long marks on the underside of my arm. i'm going to show it to shane (my pyschologist). he knows i kept on cutting since i left foundations. i intend to stop. really.

michael jacksoon

2004-06-14T21:48:30Z

hi it's me again. um, so i got back from helping "bob". i was there til 3:30, then we drove around ambler and stuff. we drove past his house. in the classroom, once he touched me on my arm, the next time he touched my butt =\ then we drove again, and we was rubbing my hand with this..and etc. btw the whole time i think he had a hard`on! omg.

i actually think it's a good thing he's moving to another state. i really liked him as a friend though. why did he have to think i was so damnned attractive? btw he actually said i was a hottie. ;x

um...i don't feel really good. i'm tired. i'll update later. leave a comment please.

e-mail

2004-06-12T19:22:03Z

yesterday when he was over, i gave "bob" my email and phone number in a piece of paper. then dad and i went inside as "bob" got back in his jeep. when we were both inside "bob" called me back outside and talked about my e-mail address: the exotic one. he thought it was nice. blah he hasn't emailed me yet. why am i going crazy over this?

boring life? i dont think so mwauahaha....

2004-06-12T03:59:34Z

hi everyone what's up. i dont feel SO good, but im a bit hyper and what not. after my last session of algebra (thank god) i went to the jr. high to visit some teachers & students. then i went to the elementary school to see my old teachers. i usually only see one teacher, my 6th grade teacher "bob". well i was walking towards "bob" and he was turned around, and when he saw me he thought i was an old girlfriend. later in the empty classroom he said i was going to look gorgeous, but that was before he knew it was me. he couldn't stop saying how attractive i was...etc. so we were talking and he wanted to drive me home, so we met up at the burger king and i got in. funny, when i was walking to his jeep, a tall black guy passing me said something to me. eek. then i got into the jeep. blah ;] he rode around a WHILE before he took me home. we were just talking and stuff, and he was talking about my old teacher. and at one point we were talking about hair, and he said i would look so hot with bright red hair, etc. he actually said i would look hot. then he said i would definately look, 100% smoking. haha. he makes me feel uncomfy, but i really like him tho. he's very attractive, but, hes much older, so...whatever. then at the end/ish of our ride he told me to grab his hands, so i did nervously. he just told me to never harm myself and if i needed something, to call him. he also wants to meet me at the library and stuff. he also wants to go out for lunch, have a picnic, etc. ahhhh so much stress right now. i cant take it. i took a nap today in the car ;\ then i ate a little bit. and i thought my life was boring. ha.

friends only

2004-06-09T19:21:42Z

...comment to be added!!

nervous

2004-06-07T18:55:50Z

omg im so nervous. i'm in the library and my dad is coming to pick me up to take me to the meeting at school. im so nervous. ah! only mr. borsch is going to be there, so i dont know why im so worried. we're going to talk about the courses im going to take next year, in the high school. so apparently im going there next year. oh well. i'll update later. ah! it's 3:00 now! the meeting starts in fifteen minutes!

DANA

blah ;]

2004-06-07T02:38:54Z

i got a brand new real journal that i write in and stuff. it's disgused though so no one knows what it is. mwuahahaha. i was talking to scotty today and he was saying he was depressed and he wanted to die (just like me the other day), and i said 'awww, you cant die. i love u :)' and i do love him, as a brother. so, that's where that's at. btw, i have a ton of volunteering projects to do! OMG i just thought of an idea! i wanna ask scotty to help me 'cause the person in charge needs more teen volunteers! and he's so fun to be with! ok im gonna ask him. also, i just got finished talking w/ a woman from the library. im going to tutor korean teens about america! yayness.

^.^ dana ^.^

i feel hyper now. sexy penguins.

omg

2004-06-06T18:50:59Z

ok two days ago when i woke up my dad left and he didn't come back til last night. i went with my mom to our friends' house who is a hairdresser. she colored both our hair and then we went back home, and just as we got there my dad hopped in the backseat of diane's car. diane hangs out with my dad a little bit. he just came back and mom and i and dad were in a fight, and he left again. grrrr i really don't like him right now. oooh on good note, my hair is like, almost bright red! it's burgundy?? it's pretty!

_dana

!!

2004-06-02T20:04:39Z

omg i'm just really depressed. i have a meeting at school on monday. it'll be weird to walk in the halls because i haven't been there for months. when mr. borsch (my old teacher) called to tell me about it, i started freaking out a bit. it was so weird talking to him after all this time. i realized i have basically no life and no friends. i hurt all my old friends, and i don't know why. i'm just a crazy pyscho bitch. the only friends i'll keep are on my online ones, the ones i can never be with. i'll never have a boyfriend, and i'll be alone for the rest of my life. my life is too screwed up. there's no reason to live anymore. i feel like jumping in front of a train.

x dana

haha

2004-06-02T14:58:18Z

rofl britt says i have to UPDATE, not take a QUIZ. ok here's your update babe. first of all, i woke up this morning and then i jumped onto the computer. w00t! dad is in bed. i think he has a headache cause he and mom were agruing. see, here's the whole story in a nutshell(lol):

+ my dad got a motorcycle
+ my mom was pissed so she took the insurance of the truck he used to drive so he couldn't drive anything except the bike
+ my mom takes up the driveway space and it's hard for dad to come out on his bike.
+ just last night or something, dad moved the truck, and my mom is pissed, and she wasn't talking to him at all yesterday, and they had a little fight this morning and mom went to sleep, etc.

i sent out my diary zine last night. i'm good on that. i seriously need to work on my variety zine though.

it looks like i'll be going to the same school next year ;\ well, a different school but with the same kids and more.

i'm gonna be a sophmore! YEAH! w00t!

like that, britt?

x0xo dana

disorder | rating

2004-06-02T14:15:19Z

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal</b>: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

update ;

2004-05-31T03:18:40Z

ahh today wasn't so hot. in fact it was purdy ugly. this guy who was at the park years ago with my brother and i, came up our street and we met again for the first time in a bunch of years. his name is phil and he looks like a pregnant lady with his beer belly and stuff. he's sorta fat - ew. but um, so we were chilling at his house, and thank god my brother's friend melissa came over. so we were laying on his couch, and i was laying on phil's lap, and i guess i was kindda asking for it, because he sorta felt me up - double eck. well, um, then i ran away with melissa. we stole my brother's bike and she rode on the pegs and we crashed into a bush. it was so fun/ny. rofl. um, then we said to the guys, "we're going skinnydipping! we're naked now!" lol. even though we weren't. so basically, we pigged out too. phil has so much good junk food. melissa left a little early, and then me and dillon went home. i talked to phil online about us, and he wants to dump his girlfriend for me. frankly, i can't stand him. but, whatever. i hope i don't come off as a mean person. i took a tyenol since i was coming down with a headache, and i cried for a little bit into my stressy pillow. i think i'm going to name him. erm, it's a small blue pillow that has a face with his teeth gritted. it's like a stress pillow. i think i'll name him feathers. ;D umm...ok im kindda tired of typing now. i can't wait for summer! i have tons of volunteer projects planned, including mostly kids, art+journaling classes (YAY), maybe a job, and that kindda stuffs. cya babes.
<33 dana

pictures

2004-05-28T01:54:07Z

well i got my haircut and my glasses. here are the new pictures of moi....check them out!

@&# pic / one ;

@&# pic / two ; (i'm chewing on a frito. lolz)

Oh La La

2004-05-27T15:41:34Z

mY aGeNdA

2004-05-27T15:35:06Z

ok today my agenda is:

me @ 12:00-spanish w/ ms.stone
me @ 1:00-getting haircut (YAY!)
me @ 2:00-therapist appointment
me @ 4:45-5:00-getting my new glasses (w00t!)

look at my future

WhErE i StAnD

2004-05-27T15:11:25Z

♥Basics♥
Name: Dana
Age: 15
Sex: Chick
Location: Abington, PA
Nicknames: Di, Dee, Frank
Top 4 Bands: Brooks + Dunn, Rascal Flatts, Lonestar, Evanescence
Top 6 Movies: Coyote Ugly, Jawbreaker, Down to You, the Rush Hours, Jason X, Freddy Vs. Jason

♥What’s your view on ....
Abortion: no acceptable. even if you are raped, you still don't have to keep your baby. just give it up to adpotion. "but what about if the woman doesn't want to carry around the baby of a rapist?" tough luck lady! even if i was raped i would give birth to the baby, and i would actually KEEP it. it's not the baby's fault the woman was raped. the baby has a right to live even though his father raped his mom.
Homosexuality/gay marriages: i don't have anything aganist gay relationships or anything like that. i actually may be bi myself. i dunno. but when it comes to marriage, just keep it at boy-girl. the IDEAL marriage was a man and woman. not a woman and woman, guy and guy.
Racism: my dad's a little racist. he has a thing aganist black people. however, that's just wrong. i can't stand racism. just because we're different colors doesn't mean we're different in personalities.
The war: i don't pay attention to that politics and other stuff so i have no clue on what the status of the war is. i don't like it. end of story.
Teen drinking: pure stupidity. you endanger yourself AND other INNOCENT victims. you can't take that risk.
Describe yourself in 7 words or less: spontaneous, nice, emotional, caring, sweet, outgoing, random.